norma moil

barely 13
	sunset on a hill
halloween night
	all's not well
violet velvet	synthetic jacket
   shaven and shorn
	had some garlic bread for dinner
met mom & stepdad
   met his guitars
	slimy kisses	false iloveyous
lies i would later learn about


	barely 13 on a hill halloween nite
	some tears squeezed silently from my eyes
		as i was so young laying in grass
	all's not well - how could i be well

walked many miles that day & it was a long ride home in white car
why did he have a bunkbed why did we have phonesex why does it hurt OW NO NO IT HURTS
stop kissing me
	you wouldn't marry me
this is a shitty date	 you're 15 in 8th grade
	you shaved the right side of your head
		your brother called you a dumbass
have a soda	let's have a cigarette
		i wanna go home


i don't like you anymore
	who are you really
what did you think about hitler
what did you say we could be engaged

but i'm barely 13
	on a hill in the grass
   cold dark october
	a mile past the fence
   my legs are bare
	i shiver in the air
   there's blood on my coat... 
	i said no
you wished for a UFO
		you didn't apologize about my dress
	you had bad manners
evil eyes	bad at kisses
				all's not well

	your dirty hands your hat and pants
can't say what happened the next day
	or anything but youliedcheatedraped

	you said you loved me you said meaningless

i was barely 13
	on glassford hill

	empty promises		betrothed to brokeness


katrina kidwell johnson january 1999