From: Marc Raaphorst To: f1shbutt@hotmail.com ; katrina@noun.org Subject: Re: Winter Soulstice Date: Tuesday, December 22, 1998 6:51 AM *Sigh*... Well the sun is up, and I'm still far from normal. 18 hours later or so... I've started to come down quite a bit though, which is reassuring. But a lot has happened. The weirdest thing began when I was taking the bus home from work. I took an alternate route because I needed to pick up a small bottle of syrup from Shopper's Drug Mart on the way home (I only had 750 mg at home). On the way I saw an advertisement for an optometrist that said: May you have the gift of good vision Dr. D M Tripp (phone number here) I thought that that was pretty bizarre.... Around 4:30 pm or so I sat outside and watched the sun set. It was pretty cloudy so I couldn't see much, but the sky grew gradually darker. Around 4:35 or so I went inside and downed all the nasty syrup... Then came back outside and watched the sun set. At 6:00 I was tripping extremely hard and getting cold, and I didn't want my parents to know I was on something, so I made my way upstairs, got your message Jeremy (sorry I didn't call you back... but I was wayyyy fuct). I lied down and put on the CD selection of choice and began my journey. At first time seemed to stop and I was merely tripping and getting concerned that I wasn't going to have an oobe... I sat there trying to "force" my soul out of my body, which wasn't working... Then I realized that there was no need to force it out, and the separation between soul and body should be so subtle and gentle as to be almost unnoticeable until it had totally occurred. It was getting really late by this time (11:00) and I was trying to relax and do it but whenever I closed my eyes I had some weird CEVs and couldn't focus. Finally around 11:30 I think I managed to have an oobe, where I felt myself being sucked out of my body up into a tunnel of light and I was taking a voyage around the planets on a mystical dragon. Then I was in a quiet fairy tale forest, with a river gently trickling in the centre, and I was trying to cross the river by leaping from protruding stone to protruding stone. I was worried that you two and Nathan had started your shamanic journey without me. I thought that I could feel a presence somewhere nearby, perhaps Katrina's, and I crossed the river and dahsed into the forest. The weirdest thing was that there was a woman there, who was actually the same woman who guided me on my last 4th plateau voyage... It was so weird... she took me gently by the hand and told me to come with her, and just as in my last 4th plateau, she led me upwards out of the forest on a path of pure energy. Then (just as in my last trip), she led me to the Master of Fire... an old indian man who exists floating amongst the astral plane and has complete control over fire... He stared at me for awhile but didn't say anything. I finally asked him why I was taken there. He told me that he had a special journey for me. I asked him about you two and Nathan, and he told me not to worry, and that you would be looked out for by the other Masters (I'm assuming the masters of air, water, and earth). He then told me that there was something important I had to do, and I was to travel to the centre of the abyss to vanquish some test... I asked him what if I failed, but he seemed to have complete confidence that I couldn't fail... I didn't want to let him down, but I told him that I was weak, and he told me that his powers would guide me on my journey. He gave me his staff, hat, and robe, and my blonde guide wished me safe luck on my journey. Then suddenly I was standing before an immense gateway, feeling the power of fire coursing through my veins and felt comfort wearing my master's garments. I walked through the gateway... and then I can't remember _anything_ else. At some point I wrote in my log, "The servants of fire are many; I am but one of his minions." and then nothing else for the rest of the night... The next thing I remember is suddenly returning to my body. I was tripping hard and the peak had passed. My clock said 4:30 am... 12 hours... I tried to remember what happened, but it was as if it was so horrible that my mind had purposely blocked it out. I wanted to sleep so I laid back, but I kept having these horrible CEVs... The worst was that you, Katrina, and you, Jeremy, called me on the phone on conference call, and you both sounded very sombre. I asked Katrina what was wrong, and she told me that Nathan had died. She didn't offer any explanation, nor did I need one. And he hadn't died in the physical sense, but in some other way... yet we all seemed to understand... Then later on Katrina you called me... and I was still really messed up, and that's when things went bad. You know how I let you go to go talk to my mom? Well she overheard me say something like, "Yeah, I took the whole gram and had a bad trip." and she flipped out. She asked me what I had done, and I was too messed up to lie to her so I told her the truth, but I told her that I had not actually taken a gram, only 750 mg (she knows I have done 840 before). She didn't believe me so I showed her the larger of the two bottles I had drank. She then yelled at me for about 15 mins, and wanted to take the day off to watch over me to make sure I didn't keel over dead. I told her it wasn't necessary, but she insisted on driving me to my grandparents' house and told them I was very sick, and that she will call every couple of hours to make sure that I am alright. I have no idea what is going to happen when I get home tonight, but I think she will forgive me for lying to her (I told her I would never do DXM again a long time back). I couldn't wait to explain what happened to you two, so I am not on my grandfather's computer and the sun has fully risen. I have to rest... My vision is crazy... Hopefully we'll be able to converse tonight on the phone or the chat... Happy tripping, Marc >From: "Dexter McThorphan" >To: vorpal20@hotmail.com >Subject: Re: Winter Soulstice >Date: Mon, 21 Dec 1998 16:07:28 EST > >no snow here, tho. (lil' warm & dry for this time of year), but we did >get a good rain last night. ugh. nothing like a nice COLD rain to keep >you inside & shivering.... > >i'm hoping for some good signs today. yesterday wasn't much for good >signs. (friend got in an accident involving 2 cars & 2 semi-trucks, >cousin's best friend died, etc.) hoping that today will be smoother. >=) > >have fun & happy oobeing. > >Hey you two, > >I'm sitting here just having arrived at work with a cup of relaxing >peppermint tea anxiously awaiting our meeting of conciousnesses tonight. >We've been granted snow up here in Ottawa; it began last night just >before I slept, and continued on all night to provide a white layer of >fresh powder. It is supposed to continue through the rest of the day and >through the night as well. I consider it a good sign and a foreshadowed >blessing of our journeys. In all likelihood I will not be able to join >you on the HTML DXM chat today due to being at work, but I may be able >to go on IRC for a final discussion before we oobe it to the astral >plane. Katrina, what ___net are you on on IRC, and can you recommend a >suitable server? If we don't make contact before tonight, I remain >confident that we will meet then. > >Marc > >______________________________________________________ >Get Your Private, Free Email at http://www.hotmail.com > > >______________________________________________________ >Get Your Private, Free Email at http://www.hotmail.com ______________________________________________________ Get Your Private, Free Email at http://www.hotmail.com